"Trouble creates a capacity to handle it....meet it as a friend, for you'll see a lot of it and had better be on speaking terms with it." -Oliver Wendell Holmes
A few days ago, I was led to these quotes by Gannet Girl's posting about them. She found them on http://www.glowinthewoods.com/ (I believe that they are part of a Jewish worship service). I am re-printing them here, because they speak my heart.
Yesterday, I had the privilege of meeting with one of the coordinators of the new Adolescent and Young Adults Cancer Program at Seattle Children's Hospital. We spent an hour discussing the program, the issues facing adolescents and young adults who have cancer, and the book that I am working on now. I hope that this book will be a resource for just this group of people. The discussion we enjoyed gave me new insights into what are some of the difficulties facing adolescents who endure cancer treatment. I hadn't thought about some of them before, because Katie was 11 and 12 years old during her treatment. It was eye-opening and inspiring. It made me want to get involved, but I usually feel that way when I visit Seattle Children's Hospital.
I know a lot of bereaved mothers who feel the same way. On certain days, grief lights a fire under me; I can't stand to see another family endure what we have suffered. I want to alleviate - and at best, prevent - that kind of suffering. I want to FIGHT BACK...but I intend to do it with love. I want to bring into the world some of the kind of light that left it when Katie passed away.
I can't bring Katie back, but I believe that I can bring light...which leads me back to those prayers which I quoted above.