Skating

I have noticed that the worse my inner pain gets, the more I seem to skate on the surface of my feelings, just going into a mode to get through it. I am in that mode right now. There is so much pain coming daily that I am not even praying as I would like. I just thank God for what we have been given, for our family, for His gifts of Mary, Jesus and for His presence, ask for help for the suffering ones in the world, the earth, the innocent, the perpetrators, -- all of us. I ask that I would be able to do His will (to me, that means His Love) this day. Not much listening going on, though. Sometimes that happens best when I take a walk; the motion of the body seems to lull the flitting thoughts into quietness.

Tonight, we are going to Seattle to spend the evening at a college-information talk. I know it's early (David is about to begin his junior year of high school), but this is a college that my parents support, and it's a good way for David to learn about it, while at the same time getting a feeling for what college-info events are like. He is perusing the huge college guidebook that I bought for him, so as to have a sense of what is out there, what the specialties of each place are, as well as the entrance requirements. My hope is that he will do much of his research this summer, and then we will visit colleges next year, so that the application process can take place next summer...and not during the busy-ness of his senior year. From what I have observed around us, senior year has enough work in and of itself!

Jaw pain is under control now. Swelling seems to be lessening, too, thanks be to God (and the antibiotics). Thank you for your well-wishes and prayers.