tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6994832747844483996.post6146551621577473944..comments2023-09-23T03:56:08.149-07:00Comments on Gberger: Warning: A hard timeGbergerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08895779471612397202noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6994832747844483996.post-80638467148880008922007-10-02T22:35:00.000-07:002007-10-02T22:35:00.000-07:00Oh Karen, you are so not alone. I was thinking th...Oh Karen, you are so not alone. I was thinking the same way the other day. When I look at the photos taken around this time last year there are photos of the girls on Halloween followed by the photos of Samantha all puffed up from all the fluids she was given at diagnosis. <BR/><BR/>One photo of Mandi holding Sam and smiling when they were both in costumes followed by one of Mandi with her eyes all red and swollen holding Samantha with tubes going into the blanket she was saddled in. <BR/><BR/>Samantha had been waking up during the night in pain for several months prior to diagnosis. It looked like growing pains/leg pains to me, but everyone I spoke to said not to worry it was probably just her teeth. She didn’t really get 'sick' until a couple days before diagnosis. It happened so fast. She was diagnosed November 11, 2006.<BR/><BR/>I want to get the Halloween decorations out, but they've been packed up a little here and a little there. Thankfully my dad did pack them up last year when the rest of us were down at Children's, but I'll have a few boxes to go through<BR/><BR/>…at the same time it's hard and it makes me feel stupid. Nothing I do will change the outcome. If Sam relapses she relapses and we'll just have to deal with it. I find that thought so terrifying. It is such a helpless feeling. It is hard not to get angry. It is hard to rely on God at all times. It's just pain hard. <BR/><BR/>With prayers for peace and healing,<BR/>Karlapysanki.blogspot.comhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16983697204378310519noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6994832747844483996.post-52135978497235805112007-10-02T16:35:00.000-07:002007-10-02T16:35:00.000-07:00How amazing to me that our nightmarish roads to th...How amazing to me that our nightmarish roads to the end of our children's lives started on the same day in a sense...10/09/06. Joseph was of course ill before that, but the day he got his transplant is the day Katie found out about her tumor. Would not surprise me to find out they are in cahoots together now. <BR/><BR/>I am here. I am reading. My heart is broken for you. I cannot believe how beautiful Katie is. I love the picture of the two of you in your first post.Sherihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16523200407409657856noreply@blogger.com